What I know vs. What I feel

i'm writing again... tonight... but this time with a different feeling... with a different thought...
can i call it love while he is so far away from me... the distance is so far for such a long time and how can we say it love? is it because of the loyalty?

i do feel missing him...
i do feel the jealousy.. how lucky that girl to be so close to him...
why my heart so stubborn in term of "just let him go" or "enjoy your life"...
trust me the loyalty in my vein stop me from betray my feelings for him..
i can still wait for him..

i can do this... trust me.. i can... i can do this for all these years why not now??
love? feelings? don't take it for granted.. don't take it so lightly...
loyalty is in my blood.. i keep on doing it all these years and i can do this for a couple of years or more...
its always there for him.. always there...
nothing can ease my heart but his smile even though its not for me...

like i said before... love...heart...and feelings... don't take it for granted...
it might turn a hundred battle ship into a dust...
my resolve is simple... i still want to wait... still do... even though the answer is clear not for me...

Find Your Own Kirameki,

Violet Rose